Fabricando Fantasias.....

Para ti.....

I love me and you forever! 

T

You are the Lord of the BREAKTHROUGH!

Isaiah 64:8

But now, O Lord, You are our Father; We are the clay, and You are the potter; And we are the work of Your hands.

 Another level, another harvest

Another day for You to manifest Your promises
Another moment, another season for a
Breakthrough, breakthrough

A greater level, a greater harvest
A greater day for You to manifest Your promises
A greater moment, a greater season for a
Breakthrough, breakthrough

This is the level, this is a harvest
This is the day that You will manifest Your promises

This is the moment, this is the season for a
Breakthrough, breakthrough

Breakthrough, breakthrough
Breakthrough, breakthrough

I love me and I love you! 

Teresita 

Yo quiero....

Calle 13 - Un Beso de Desayuno

"Oye, esto es pa' que ...
veas que yo tambien ...
escribo cosas bonitas"

Yo quiero caminar por encima de tu pelo,
hasta llegar al ombligo de tu oreja,
y recitarte un poquito de cosquillas,
y regalarte una sabana de almejas,
darte un beso de desayuno,
pa' irnos volando hasta neptuno,
si hace frio te caliento con una sopa de amapola,
y con un fricase de acerola,

Quiero caminar por encima de tu pelo,
hasta llegar al ombligo de tu oreja,
y recitarte un poquito de cosquillas,
y regalarte una sabana de almejas,
darte un beso de desayuno,
pa' irnos volando hasta neptuno,
si hace frio te caliento con una sopa de amapola,
y con un fricase de acerola

Tu eres un panal de dulce, fruta fresca,
tu tienes una mirada demasia'o pintoresca,
una mirada color infinito, tu me pones el estomago blandito,
vamo' pasito a pasito siguiendonos la huella,
caminando en una tombola de estrellas,
un trayecto con clima perfecto,
regalame una sonrisita con sabor a viento
tu eres mi vitamina del pecho mi fibra
tu eres todo lo que me equilibra,
un balance, lo que me conplementa
un masajito con sabor a menta,

Tu tienes una cosita que brilla que sobresale
por eso yo quiero que tu me regales treinta carnavales
cuatrocientos mil cuentos, una cajita pa' guardar los momentos
vamos hacer burbujas dentro del cafe,
vamos a tener cien bebe y dejar los fliche pa' otro dia
tu me hicistes brujeria, bruja
vamonos pa' Cuba, cien millas patinando por las antillas,
vamos hacer un compromiso sin capilla,
con una siembra de trigo y con la luna de testigo
enrollaito usando el mismo abrigo,

Quiero caminar por encima de tu pelo,
hasta llegar al ombligo de tu oreja,
y recitarte un poquito de cosquillas,
y regalarte una sabana de almejas,
darte un beso de desayuno,
pa' irnos volando hasta neptuno,
si hace frio te caliento con una sopa de amapola,
y con un fricase de acerola,

Tu eres todo un evento, una pintura en movimiento
un arbol que respira, tu eres una diosa calima
tu rima conmigo tu convina, que tal
Si yo me inyecto el pulgar en la boca
y me inflo como un globo
nos estacionamos en un arbol de algarrobo
vamonos que el tiempo es oro,
la noche a da'o un estiron
y tengo el oceano de chaperon
mis piernas se conviltieron en algodon
porque estar contigo se siente cabron

Quiero caminar por encima de tu pelo,
hasta llegar al ombligo de tu oreja,
y recitarte un poquito de cosquillas,
y regalarte una sabana de almejas,
darte un beso de desayuno,
pa' irnos volando hasta neptuno,
si hace frio te caliento con una sopa de amapola,
y con un fricase de acerola,

Quiero caminar por encima de tu pelo,
hasta llegar al ombligo de tu oreja,
y recitarte un poquito de cosquillas,
y regalarte una sabana de almejas,
darte un beso de desayuno,
pa' irnos volando hasta neptuno,
si hace frio te caliento con una sopa de amapola,
y con un fricase de acerola

Ey, ey, ey, chica
ey, ey, ey, chica
ey, ey, ey, chica
ey, ey, ey, Calle 13
ey, ey, ey, chica
ey, ey, ey, chica
ey, ey, ey
ey, ey, ey, chica
"Oye Hector metele ahy, en la guitarra"

 

I love me and I love u,

Teresita 

Sugar and starch free!

so fresh n so clean

I love me and I love u,

Tere

I love this song...

I don't remember feeling like this...
Baby...Baby I love you...Baby...Baby I love you.

I got this jones forming in my bones (from a man),
who indeed took over my soul, (understand),
I couldn't breathe if he ever said (he would leave),
get on my knees till they bloody red, (baby please),
see I don't know if you get it yet (just don't know),
He's like a lighter to my cigarette(watch me smoke),
I never knew another human life(didn't know),
could have the power to take over mine,
So baby baby.

Baby, baby, baby, baby, baby(baby I love you),
baby, baby,baby baby,baby,
I love it when I hear ya name,
got me sayin' baby, baby, baby,
baby, baby,(baby I love you)
baby, baby, baby, baby, baby.

See, I could never feel alone with you (in my life),
I'll give up everything I own for you (won't think twice),
almost a shame how I'm mesmerized (such a shame),
I loose my thought looking in your eyes (I know why),
because your kisses make my lips quiver (and that's real),
and when you touch me my whole body shivers (I can feel),
now, I can see how another life(nother life),
could have the power to take over mine..cause your my...

Baby, baby, baby, baby, baby,(baby I love you),
baby, baby,baby baby,baby,
I love it when I hear ya name,
got me sayin' baby, baby, baby, baby, baby(baby I love you)
baby, baby, baby, baby, baby.
Break it down

Baby, I can't see my world (can't see)
living here on God's green earth, (God)
you don't know what ya done to me (done to me),
I never thought I'd need you desperately(desperately),
it's kind of sick how I'm stuck on you(stuck on you),
but I don't care cause I'm needa you (I'm needing you),
and how I feel will remain the same (remains the same),
cause your're my baby (cause your my baby),
listen and when the world starts to stress me out (where I run),
it's to you boy without a doubt (you're the one),
who keeps me sane and I can't complain (can't complain),
you're like a drug you relieve my pain (may seem strange),
you're like the blood flowing through my vains (oooo),
keeps me alive and feeding my brain (oooo),
now this is how another human life (nother life),
could have the power to take over mine..cause your my

Baby, baby, baby, baby, baby (baby I love you),
baby, baby,baby baby,baby, I love it when I hear ya name,
got me sayin' baby, baby, baby, baby, baby(ooo..baby I love you),
baby, baby, baby, baby, baby.

baby baby baby baby
baby baby baby
baby baby baby baby
baby baby baby baby baby

Baby, baby, baby, baby, baby
baby, baby,baby baby,baby
baby, baby, baby, baby, baby
baby, baby, baby, baby, baby.

I love me and I love you,

T

I know you are checking this....

This is for you! 

I love you no matter how crazy it all was. 

I forgive myself and I forgive you. 

I only want the best for you. 

Que Dios te bendiga siempre... Y espero que te amen 

como tu tanto querias. 

Dios es mi salvacion y tiene misericordia. 

Un beso en la frente! 

I love me and I love you, 

Tere

Yo mira EXCUSE ME.....

Don't call me gorda, gordita, chubby, chunky, none of that shit! I'm over it! 

There are several definitions out there to this term "pleasantly plump", some are cool and some totally suck! I want to be considered this because I like the sound of it! For me "pleasantly plump" will mean a thick chick, who is solid, got cushion for the pushin', and is nice to look at! <3 WORD Thanks! Not only will I be my own freaking Paparazzi, but I will be my own dictionary too! How's that for some apples!! :)  No one can define me but myself! PERIOD!

I love me and I love u too, 

Lah T

Swag

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34.4#'s gone

On a mission..... Reclaiming my life back one lost pound at a time!

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You just lost one, it's so silly how come!

Lost Ones Lyrics Artist(Band):Lauryn Hill It's funny how money changes situations Miscommunication leads to complication My emancipation don't fit your equation I was on the humble, you - on every station Some wan' play young Lauryn like she dumb But remember not a game new under the sun Everything you did has already been done I know all the tricks from Bricks to Kingston My ting done made your kingdom wan' run Now understand L. Boogie non violent But if a thing test me, run for mi gun Can't take a threat to mi newborn son L's been this way since creation A groupie call, you fall from temptation Now you wanna ball over separation Tarnish my image in your conversation Who you gon' scrimmage, like you the champion You might win some but you just lost one You might win some but you just lost one You might win some but you just lost one You might win some but you just lost one You might win some but you just lost one Now, now how come your talk turn cold Gained the whole world for the price of your soul Tryin' to grab hold of what you can't control Now you're all floss, what a sight to behold Wisdom is better than silver and gold I was hopeless now I'm all hopeful Every man want to act like he's exempt When him need to get down on his knees and repent Can't slick talk on the day of judgment Your movement's similar to a serpent Tried to play straight, how your whole style bent? Consequence is no coincidence Hypocrites always want to play innocent Always want to take it to the full out extent Always want to make it seem like good intent Never want to face it when it's time for punishment I know that you don't wanna hear my opinion But there come many paths and you must choose one And if you don't change then the rain soon come See you might win some but you just lost one You might win some but you just lost one You might win some but you just lost one You might win some but you just lost one You might win some but you just lost one You might win some but you really lost one You just lost one, it's so silly how come When it's all done did you really gain from What you done done, it's so silly how come You just lost one Now don't you understand man universal law What you throw out comes back to you, star Never underestimate those who you scar Cause karma, karma, karma comes back to you hard You can't hold God's people back that long The chain of Shatan wasn't made that strong Trying to pretend like your word is your bond But until you do right, all you do will go wrong Now some might mistake this for just a simple song And some don't know what they have 'til it's gone Now even when you're gone you can still be reborn And, from the night can arrive the sweet dawn Now, some might listen and some might shun And some may think that they've reached perfection If you look closely you'll see what you've become Cause you might win some but you just lost one You might win some but you just lost one You might win some but you just lost one You might win some but you just lost one You might win some but you just lost one You might win some but you really lost one You just lost one, it's so silly how come When it's all done did you really gain from What you done done, it so silly how come (repeat to end)

Gamma life ...

It's the Glamma life, no the Gamma life! Now that I am safe, I have been able to find so many parts of me that I forgot about.

 I love being a "Woman of Distinction" a sister of the largest Latina sorority in the nation, Sigma Lambda Gamma National Sorority Inc. SLG has over 100 chapters across the country. WEPA!!!!  I waited til my Junior year in college to join the sorority. I was already an activist on the University of Illinois campus, fighting against the racist mascot "Chief Illiniwek", fighting to keep the cultural centers open, and the list goes on . When I decided to join the sorority the activist in the campus community were so upset. They told me so many things about how sororities were pieces of shit and that I was basically selling myself out to the mainstream world... my response was... WHATEVER!!!!

I decided to join not because it was the cool thing to do on campus, but because I had finally found a purpose/mission/vision that articulated what I wanted, and how I wanted to be. It talked to me... it also helped that my cousin Lizzy and Luzumaris were one, and the fact that my dad was in a fraternity in college. He is a Phi Epsilon Chi. Bueno, I knew that it was good choice and would be whatever I made it be, and that it had very amazing women in it. Wow, little did I know that this organization would be the beginning of a new chapter in my life. I did community service, study hours, partied, was a dean, road tripped, dated  frat boyz... the whole nine... basically I kicked it. The best thing about it was and still is the fact that I made the dopest friends/sisters ever. 

The women across the nation have been so amazing, loyal, supportive and real. Ok not every single sister is my favorite, but I do respect them and the letters that they rock... which means that they believe in the same purpose as me... NO I don't idolize the organization, I think that it is an incredible instrument/tool for the survival of women of color on campuses everywhere. The Dramatically Delicious Delta Chapter is where I am from, and we are one of the oldest in the sorority. I learned a lot from the founders of the sorority! Shout outs to Danell Marie Riojas for being a fierce and down to Earth founder. Ok so here are some pics of me in my Gamma time! I will be 12 years old in the sorority and I feel like if I crossed yesterday.

 

Our beautiful shield! Very deep and powerful! I stand for everything on this shield. It was worth the sweat, tears and sacrifice period!

         

Gammas run this nation! 

This is one of my favorite Gamma pictures. This picture was taken during Spring Break 2000 in Florida. I had just crossed into SLG! I had lost about 30 pounds during my pledging process. I really enjoyed being this size. It was perfect for my build! 

 This year we turned 21 and I am so proud of the moves that the organization has done across the country and abroad!

Pledging Fall 1999

At an Iota Phi Theta Party doing "community service".

After the Latino Fashion Show at the Illini Union. We looked fly!

All the other orgs were talking about how the Gammas' pledges were 

so beautiful and looked so proper for the event. We were a hit!!!! 

Don't get it twisted, there were haters there... they had to suck it up! <3 

My crossing nite! 

Line name: Dinamita 

Captain of P.O.R.F.I.N. 

#86 ( first Gamma with that special number) :) 

Dec 10, 1999 3:18:10 AM

86. Teresita "Dinamita" Ayala

87. Mireya "Animada" Carrera 

88. Laurie "Melosa" Martinez

89. Blanca "Valerosa" Valdez

90. Rosanna "Rizitos" Bahamon

91. Mayra "Divina" Tapia

Captain Dinamita and proud of it! 

Convention 2000 @ Motherland -Iowa City, Iowa

Check out the fishnet dress (thanks to a thick SGRho) and my Pledge Dad "BigPoppa's" chanclas, cuz them heels were killing me! :)

Captain Dinamita, Midship Melosa and Anchor Divina at the Gamma Auction. 

Me and my momma Anhelo #66 then 

 

Me and my momma NOW!!!! Hermanas Por Vida! 

Valerie "Calorosa" -my ride or die sis! 

My pledge dad Big Poppa #53 and brother Eleggua from 

Kaotik Kappa Chapter! 

Strolling my ass off! Kicking it! Gammas were on fire on my campus! 

We had a blast! 

I had the opportunity to educate these dynamic women. This by far was my best experience as a sister 

of SLG. The dedication, passion, and love that they had for SISTERHOOD was UNTOUCHABLE, hence their line name :

I.N.T.O.C.A.B.L.E.S.

101. Yvonne "Iluminacion" White

102. Alexis "Fenix" Todd

103. Edith "Veracidad" Lule

104. Nicole "Eximia" Ceasar

As actives they understood the concept of community on a really political level, they understood that in order to create change you have to be it, live it, breathe it. I am grateful for these women, they made me see life in a whole different way! 

One of the coolest things is also being able to bring another little cousin into the sisterhood 

Maria "Ninemi". There are now 3 of us from the familia that are GAMMAS. Dopeness! 

Love u Prima! 

Our connection with Black Greek orgs on campus and across the nation is awesome. The firm which consists of Phi Beta Sigma, Zeta Phi Beta, Sigma Lambda Beta, and Sigma Lambda Gamma has been able to do really powerful programming in their respective campuses. Here are a few shot of us (Gammas) with the ladies of Z Phi B. This was an important relationship for us as orgs of color. Our being as tight as we were and still are, really made a difference in the attendance of events, and things that mattered on campus. Our numbers spoke! 

Gamma/Beta fun! 

My beautiful children :)

These are my 3 of my 7 children. L to R 

Loyola University daughter Sabrina, U of I kid Cristina, and Kaotik Kappa son Jared

DePaul Univ. Beta son Piquin with his parents Miguel "Carino" Ayala 

and Teresita "Dinamita" Ayala.

Jared and my Delta first pledge daughter Karla " La Fenomenal".

My beautiful pledge son from Florida- "Pantera" and I at the wedding of 

his son Gio, my grandson! <3 

My Colorado babies (Monica , Daughter Elevacion, Joy and Jaclyn)  :) All of them are teachers in the Colorado School School System. My daughter is a Principal! Heyyyyy! 

Missing a picture of my son Pantera (USF) and my beautiful daughter from Minnesota Dinamica! :/

The remnants of my para! I was a bit obsessed with making and buying 

stuff that had either pink or purple on it or the letters. Ask anyone and they will tell 

you that I my the university was lucky that they didn't let people paint the dorm wall... they would have been shocking pink and majestic purple in a jiffy! <3 

And this is what is left. In a box! 

I would love to go back to those times ... there are so many memories that I will just have to keep in my dome. 

I thank God for SLG. I truly do! <3 

Right there in Washington Heights...

I have been diggin' thru boxes that I have left all over the world. Have had people send me whatever I left in their home. Every single person has something that I have left, some have clothes, books, some earrings, medical bills, cd's. I have lived in many places. This last time though, was different, I left my heart. I know I left my heart. It was the first time that I ever thought that love healed all wounds, and love was possible. I knew that it was hard, but I was down, I was down to create. Sad part is that I had broken so many hearts before while looking for myself that homegirl "Karma" came thru and fucked it all up for me. No trust, and with out that my dear friends, nothing is possible. No trust, no communication, no relationship. I left my heart in Washington Heights, right off of Broadway, between Ft.Washington and Riverside Drive, a few blocks from the George Washington Bridge.  It's there...... waiting to be taken back upstairs to the apartment, but Karma won't let it. This is the first time I left something of real value anywhere and I'm not sure if I will get it back, and if I do it probably won't be the same. Who is to blame? 


I love me and I love u !
                        T

Mirror, mirror....

I have been in search of her... traveling around the world, looking for her....

A love once told me that I was an escapist, another even more beautiful love told me to

stop running, to let me catch up to me? 

I believed neither and kept going, looking, searching, buscando.

La busque en California, Nueva York, Chicago, Florida, New Jersey, Puerto Rico, Venezuela, Santo Domingo, Guatemala, Chile, Alemania, Barcelona, Palestina y Istanbul, y nada. It was as if someone had kidnapped her, took her, tortured her, beat her, raped her and I knew that and still couldn't find her. The agony, the pain, the sex, the distractions, the drugs, the alcohol, the partners, the abortions, the food, the music, the revolution. Oh I looked in all those jungles and nothing. No sight of her, no scent of her, no smile, no laugh, no joke, no free spirit. None! 

She was gone, she was somewhere in this planet that holds billions of souls. As I continued to search for her I noticed that I was wasting away looking for her, feeling every single bit of her pain. After multiple self mutilations, sleepless nights, damning Satan, praying to Christ for mercy, she appeared, she had never left. It was the first time she was actually present in the mirror. I finally looked at myself in the mirror and saw her. She smiled with most humble energy and said, "Tere, te amo.... te he estado esperando por tanto tiempo, ya, you can rest. We are safe!" 

(Barcelona, Spain : Catedral La Merced)

Patron Saint of Barcelona celebrated ecery year on my birthday 

September 24th. She captivated me! 

I love me and you, 

T